Monday, February 22, 2010


I have it BAD! I am so ready to be done. Only 10 more weeks & one of those is spring break. I keep telling myself I can do anything for 10 weeks. But I don't feel like I can. I have no desire to do homework anymore. I feel scatterbrained & I am forgetting things that I wouldn't usually forget. I am so wrapped up in finishing my internship that I have time for little else.

I told myself that I wouldn't get stressed out about trying to finish two semesters of internship in one. But I am. I want to be done SO badly that I can't stand the thought of not trying hard enough and putting in enough time to finish on time. At the same time I have no desire to do so. Does that make sense?

At this point I am only there for the sole purpose of getting enough hours to finish on time. Trouble is part of those hours must be with clients and right now I am getting very few client hours. The weather has something to do with it. That & I can't control when people will and will not show up for their appointments. At least half the time they don't show. I'm scared that that is what will keep me from finishing. Something I have no control over. I'm slightly okay with having to continue my internship into next semester for a week or two if I need the client hours but I am not okay with much more than that.

Sorry, I don't mean to sound so negative. But I just needed to vent. I just needed to put the words to paper and hopefully give my brain some relief. At least until the next time I start ruminating about it and can't stop. Ha ha! I sound like one of my clients!

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