Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Pink Polka Dots and Shirring...


What could be cuter?

Perhaps the 4 year old wearing it!
Happy Birthday Stink!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Vintage Beauty

On a lighter note I wanted to share with you a recent vintage find and my quilt top made of all vintage linens!
Don't you just love these? I am not a huge strawberry fan, well for decorating that is. But when I saw them leaning against the wall in the Hospice resale store I just could not resist. Of course the price tag of $7.50 each with an additional 50% off because they were clearance and then a special of, buy one 50% off item get another one free, was equally hard to resist! I paid $4.25 for both! I still haven't decided if I am going to keep them or sell them. At some point in time I plan on having a red & white vintagey kitchen & these would be perfect. But who knows when that will happen. For now they are mine cause they make me smile and think of all the yummy things we used to make out of strawberries as a kid when we grew our own in the backyard.

As for my quilt isn't it yummy! I collected the linens from trips to various thrift stores. I love how it turned out. Now I just have to quilt it. What a chore that will be, especially since I have never quilted before!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Sadness

This week has been filled with lots of tears and emotions and two of the hardest conversations I have ever had in my life. To put it bluntly my Grandma is dying. She does not have a terminal diagnosis, just no will to live. Thursday I went with my mom to visit with my grandma and to talk with the Dr about THE decision. To continue medicating her or to keep her comfortable and let her go.
There were 9 of us in on the conversation, my mom & her five brothers and sister, a sister-in-law & myself. It was decided that we would ask grandma what she wanted even though she had expressed numerous times that she just wanted to die. My mom, my aunt & I were somehow unofficially delegated to be the ones to ask her. Everyone else went outside to vent and probably to avoiding being a part of that conversation.
There were tears, lots of them. Questions were asked, answers were given, but they just added to the confusion. The last thing she said about it was "I'm not ready to go until God is ready for me and he is not ready for me." Last night she begged my mom to just take her home. But going home means making the decision to let her go. It means dying. Things are still up in the air, with no real solid decision made, just to wait a few days and see.

The second conversation happened yesterday. I had to tell the boys something. I tried as gently as I could to explain what was going on. There were more tears, lots more. Elijah took it really hard. He sat in my lap and sobbed for several minutes. Seth was very concerned with what would happen to her house and all of her things inside it. I think the way his brain works keeps him from really understanding the emotion involved with it. Perhaps it is better that way. It sort of protects him.

I don't mean to be depressing. I just needed to share, to vent, to release some of that emotion I am trying desperately to keep inside of me. As a clinician this is something I must do. As a human living my emotions is something I must do. I find I am struggling with that.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Take Me To The Zoo

A trip to the Columbus Zoo has been in order for a while and we finally made it happen on Monday. There were many animals on our list of things to see here are just a few.
Baby Elephant ~ Check

Eagles ~ Check

Kangaroos ~ Check

Koala Bears ~ Check

Komodo Dragons ~ Check!

When we were at the koala exhibit the exhibit was full of free growing grasses some of which were quite tall. Elijah said, "I feel like I am at home with all this grass around" It was all I could do not to laugh. In case you were wondering our grass is not that tall. Duane just likes to see how long he can go without cutting it. He tends to let it go alot longer than I would.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Girls Weekend Away

This past weekend a few of my friends from church went to Norris Lake for a long & much deserved weekend away. Fun was had boating, eating out, cooking, riding 4 wheelers & jet skis, having our feet pampered & playing Hand & Foot. It was so relaxing to get away & spend time with friends

This was the view from the deck of our cabin one morning. Just breathtaking and awesome to think that God created all of this.